February 2012
Fuck shit.
I don’t want to do this anymore.
You’ll always have a war inside yourself.
You’re only as tall as youre heart will let you be, you’re only as small as the world will make you seem.
I’ve been chewed up and spit out.
I am only remnants of who I once was.
Just take the silence, it’s all that’s left.
Just broken up inside.
I’m drowning in ice water.
I feel as if I’m wasting away.
Be a survivor not a victim. And from there become a warrior.
Porqui tu as plus serieuse? Parce-que je suis tres triste.
Every time you reach out and take something you care about, life comes by and snatches it away from you.
We all fall down, lose our heads.
We all say words we regret.
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I’m drowning in my suffering.
Funny how possibility can lift you. Funny how reality can slam you down.
They make me feel filthy, like a dirty whore.
Nothing fixes a thing so intently in the memory as the wish to forget it.
Heaven doesn’t seem far away anymore.
Nothing makes sense anymore, nothing is right when you’re gone.
Cuz I am barely breathing.
This sunken feeling in my heart will not leave me away. It’s an anchor.
She fell away from reach.
When she was just a girl, she expected all of the world.
Take it all, take all I have.
You hurt me, but you had deserved it…
My chest is caving in on itself.
It’s like you’ve scarred me with the memories inside my head.
I’m not okay.
My head is in circles. I just want to curl up and stay here until things get better.
My heart can’t take any more lies, and my eyes are all out of cries.
I need comforting but I have to follow my head for a while no matter how much pain my heart feels.
Silence is easy, to say it has been killing me.
Why is everything so confusing?
What goes up, must come down.
There is nothing left to do but sit and watch, staying strong.
I am broken, more than I had realized.
I need to become whole.
There is no comfort.
And you realize I haven’t cried…
Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same.
Shit sucks.
You lie so I don’t trust you.
Yes, I’m a cutter. That doesn’t make me any worse of a person than anyone else.
Dnt try to play stupid games with me.
I can’t take one more sleepless night.
I need a sign to let me know you’re here…
So thanks, now I don’t get food.